I Didn’t See It Coming, But Maybe I Should Have

(Part 2 of My Booth Series)

You ever have a moment where everything changes in an instant?

One second, you’re steady-you’ve got a plan, a vision, a path laid out in front of you. And then, before you even realize what’s happening, the ground shifts beneath your feet. You don’t get a warning. No flashing signs. No time to prepare.

Just like that, a door closes. And it doesn’t matter if you weren’t ready.

I wasn’t ready.

I didn’t see it coming.

But maybe I should have.

The Illusion of Control

I’ve always been someone who likes to be in control. Not in a power-hungry way-more like a this is my life, and I decide how it plays out kind of way. I like to make my own choices, to know what’s coming, to prepare myself so nothing catches me off guard.

But sometimes, life makes choices for you.

And those are the hardest moments, aren’t they? When something is taken out of your hands before you’re ready to let it go. When a chapter closes, and you’re left staring at a blank page, thinking,

What now?

I’ve been wrestling with that feeling. That gnawing discomfort of unfinished business. That ache of this wasn’t supposed to happen like this.

Because I wasn’t done. I had more to give. More ideas. More passion. More me. And yet, here I am-forced to move forward before I feel ready.

But here’s what I’ve learned about control:

It’s an illusion.

We can plan. We can prepare. We can build something with every ounce of love and energy we have.

And still, sometimes, the ground shifts beneath our feet.

When Letting Go Isn’t a Choice

I used to think that if I did everything right, if I showed up, worked hard, and gave my all, then things would stay steady. That effort guaranteed security. That good people who do good work don’t have things ripped away from them.

I know better now.

Because life doesn’t always work in neat little boxes. It doesn’t always let you tie things up with a pretty bow before moving on. Sometimes, it pulls the rug out from under you and forces you to make peace with an exit you never planned to take.

And that? That’s where the real challenge begins.

Because when something is taken from you, it’s easy to get stuck in the what ifs.

What if I had seen it coming?

What if I had done something differently?

What if I had tried harder?

But those questions don’t change the outcome. And they don’t serve the person I’m becoming.

So instead, I’m asking myself something new:

What if this was meant to happen?

What if I was never supposed to stay where I was?

What if God is redirecting me to something bigger-something I wouldn’t have walked toward on my own?

That thought stops me in my tracks. Because as much as I hate uncertainty, as much as I wish I had been the one to decide when to move on, I can’t shake the feeling that this-this unexpected shift, this moment of forced surrender-was always part of the plan.

And if that’s true? maybe I’m not losing anything at all.

Maybe I’m just making space for something better.

The Lesson in the Unraveling

I don’t have all the answers yet. But here’s what I do know:

– Nothing lasts forever-not even the things we pour our hearts into. And that’s okay.

– Some endings are actually beginnings in disguise. Even when they don’t feel like it.

– Fighting change only makes it harder. The real peace comes when you stop resisting and start trusting.

I won’t pretend this is easy. I won’t say I’m grateful just yet. Because truthfully? I’m still processing.

Still figuring it all out. Still sitting with the weight of a chapter that ended before I was ready to close the book.

But I also know this:

Every time my life has unraveled, something better has taken its place.

Every time I’ve been forced to let go, I’ve found something I didn’t even know I needed.

And every time I thought I was losing? I was actually being led somewhere greater.

So maybe I should have seen this coming. Maybe the signs were there all along.

Or maybe, just maybe? I wasn’t supposed to see it coming at all.

Because sometimes, the biggest shift in life aren’t the ones we planned for —

they’re the ones that change everything before we realize what’s happening.

And that’s exactly where I am now.

Standing at the edge of something new!

More to come soon…..